This bird has flown.

I’ve spent the past few minutes looking through my MCR images folder on my computer. I save whichever ones I find interesting, and there’s thousands of them there. My favorite fan art to make has always been MCR, and I’ve just been thinking about how there aren’t going to be any new pictures in this folder from any new tours.

I’m okay with that. Thing change, disassemble, rearrange. Something I’ve struggled with and tried to understand through my art and writing has been the progression of time. Time closes all doors. While some part of me knew that there eventually wouldn’t be any more images in that folder, another part of me hoped it’d be a while before that happened.

I know what’s upset fans has been the finality of what happened. A breakup is different than an indefinite hiatus. A breakup is so… final. Part of me wonders if NIrvana had been popular in this era instead of the past if the fans would have reacted like the MCRmy. While I’m at peace with the end of the band, I’m still trying to get over the finality of it. And that’s okay.

If anything, this gives me more motivation to get myself noticed with something creative. Maybe if I get noticed, or am in the right place at the right time, I’ll meet Gerard. The band as a whole helped inspire me, but Gerard’s art and solo stuff inspires me just as much. If I could just say thank you, I’d feel like my life was complete.

I wonder now where I’ll find news about the band member’s activities…